Then It Happened...I Thought I Lost My Mind

I had been having panic attacks, and muscle spasms so bad that I would end up in the emergency room at least once every month. The doctors all concluded that stress was the cause of ALL of the symptoms that I was experiencing. (More about this another time)

My team of doctors had no clue what was wrong. 

There’s nothing like being in constant pain and not knowing why or how to make it stop. It got so bad that I started seeing a therapist. That was actually the best thing I could have done for myself at the time.

I highly recommend it if you haven’t done that for yourself.

After almost 2 years of working with a therapist/counselor, it happened.  It was late summer of 2000. I had just been placed on disability because the spasms and pain in my neck had gotten so bad that I couldn’t turn my head to drive.

I remember, I was in our bedroom and my hubby, Charles was in the shower. No-one else was in the house when I heard a still very faint voice say, “Kellye, can you hear me?” I looked around like someone was standing behind me or beside me. There was no-one there.

I thought to myself, “Hmm the TV is not on, Charles is in the shower, but I know I heard something.”

Then I heard it again, “I know you can hear me. Kellye, can you hear me?” 

In that instant, I fell onto the bed, laughing hysterically; because I knew that it was finally OFFICIAL! ~ I had lost my mind!

I couldn’t stop laughing. “OK, now I am hearing things…oh this is just great”, I said out loud.

At my next therapist visit, I remember telling my counselor, quite matter-of-factly, “Someone is talking to me, maybe it’s my spirit or something, but I know I can hear it.”  She looked at me, trying not to be alarmed, but I knew just what she was thinking, ”This girl has flipped her lid, and there was no going back”.

I had not reconciled the fact that the voice was God’s voice until My Silent Weekend, later in the year at Thanksgiving, 2000. 

So, have you lost your mind lately? Or is it just me? What was the first thing God ever said to you?

I Finally DID IT!!!

Hey Family,

This Thanksgiving I had sooooo much to be thankful for!

There I was, 11 years to the day and I had finally finished my very first book, The Self Love Lessons: 7 Lessons Every Woman Must 
Learn About Herself and the Power of Womanhood.

Part of Living Self Love is being comfortable in celebrating your own successes. Having said that, I am sooo excited and so proud of myself.

It's been a VERY LONG time coming and I really do pray that it is a valuable resource to everyone who reads it.

I find it even more interesting that this was the 11th anniversary of My Silent Weekend; the weekend that God revealed this to me as my life's assignment. In addition to that, the book's completion falls in the 11th month of the year 2011. 11th anniversary was 11/2011: There must be some significance to that.

It's been said that the pain that we 'grow through' in our lives wasn't for us at all. The lessons that we learn through our challenging experiences always prove to be invaluable nuggets of wisdom for those in our world. Well, this book is no different.

Through many years of physical, emotional, financial and relational PAIN, I have learned a lot about myself, about God and about the strength and power that my life holds when I fully embrace God's command for self love.

In the next few weeks, I'll be launching a series of FREE videos on The Self Love Lessons to give away some of the most valuable nuggets covered in the book. I hope you stay in touch. I'd hate for you to miss out.

Finally, I am so very thankful for YOU!!! Thankful that you have been on this journey right along with me. I am elated to be able to share with you what God has poured into me over the years.

Let's all start the new year with a focus on stepping into the most powerful version of ourselves.

I can't wait to share more with you but for now, LIKE me on my Facebook Fan Page (http://www.facebook.com/QueenieBrownFan), follow me, leave a comment here and 'Share the Love' with your family and friends!

Keep Loving You, Queenie!